Everything has a beginning....

A good friend once told me, that writing is the salvation to a wretched soul...Well, not in so many words, or in any of those words, at all....But you get the point. I often would call him up, and talk about the troubles loitering in my mind, and he would sit and listen quietly, often offering little light to guide me. Rather, he would gently prod me, to take up writing, and pen down my thoughts and feelings. It is in the quiet moment between your thoughts and emotions, distilling them into words, that the raw energy you feel can be sublimated into something substantial and of some use to you - understanding, acceptance, forgiveness, etc.

Something about this wise piece of advice didn't strike the right chord with me. I've always been a highly-insecure person. I didn't think i could stand my own scrutiny, let alone live with the insecurity that someone else could stumble upon it...Yet I would hate for my thoughts articulated into semi-coherent prose to be so swiftly disposed of. It is easier to just trash those feelings around with verbal words, have someone listen to it, preferably, and after that soul-cleansing, be done with it...least for a while...

But something attractive looms with the idea of an anonymous blog: that your feelings are penned, that someone out there perhaps would read and care (or not), that you have your raw emotions/feelings/thoughts stored somewhere - semi concealed from the real world. The idea of not having to worry about exposing too much of oneself - since the blog is anonymous, certainly seems a worthy consideration. So yes, the idea has been bouncing around in my head. And yes, other previous attempts at this task have proved to be unsatisfactory. But here goes another effort....

Here is to self-growth, and self-actualization....Hurrah.